Christmas with the Durfees

This Christmas has been hard, with the just the kids and I. My Husband was not allowed to come home, due to lack of management in the office. I have expressed anger, sadness, depression, confussion, pretty all you can ever express when in any point of emotions can be expressed.
This is our thirteenth christmas, and been together every year and to not have it this year has definately had its tole. My kids handled it better than I did they even went as far as saving one present each  to open until their daddy comes home. To have their christmas with their daddy. I am simply amazed the great spirit my kids had. We had our family christmas, then went and spent christmas with Tylors mom. I was really considering not going at first, because I was simply in a depression of emotions. But I bucked up and started enjoying the idea of going to my mum inlaws house. I love her and her expression of still making me feel welcome when I was down. I could not ask for a better person to have in my life. It was a great day of smiles, laughter, and family.
When the time came to wake Tylor up, since he works nights and yes he worked on Christmas. It was a total bummer for him but it kept him busy. Most of his family got to talk to him on the phone, which made him a lil emotional himself, but at least he knows he is loved. It made his day lets just put it that way. And it sure made mine. I love the holidays but it simply isnt the same when the family isnt together. But since it is a day to celebrate the birth of Jesus Christ, it was a great reminder of our redeemers entrance into the earth and to praise his peaceful spirit. I will always remember the feelings I endured this Christmas, and remind my children of what the true meaning of Christmas is all about.  

The Holidays

I love the Holidays. I love the fact I have my family, and my friends and the fact I was able to cook for everyone during the Thanksgiving holiday. When I cook it was as if I was in my own world,  and my purpose to give a meal that everyone would remember. I got lucky this year by having the opportunity to cook twice. I live to hear the words delicious, and I am so full I am Miserable. The best part about the Thanksgiving holiday was my husband was home. I was elated beyond compare, to have hime here to enjoy the warm home cooked meal that he would not really have unless he was home.
My kids were happy to be able to see him, as well as our friends and family. He works his butt off to deserve his time home.  What better time than the holidays.  This next Holiday "Christmas" is not going to be the same however. Out of the last 12 years that we have had christams together, this year we will not. Responsability over rules tylors home time. Is it going to effect our Christmas? The answer is yes, I gave our kids the decision to have Christmas on time or wait til daddy comes home. Half the kids said wait for daddy, the other half said have Christmas on Christmas. It tugs on my heart very badly because I know if it was up to me I would wait for him. Today Tylor called me and said you know what you need to do Christmas on the 25th , because it is the day it should be celebrated. All he want to do is Skype with the kids, and see their excitement  on the day of is all he wants. I have to admit I was in tears when he told me that, but relieved at the same time. So the kids are not disappointed. I just love him for being so selfless.  I heart him :)